after the two weeks break and the result released,

yea, is the same feelings again [ NOTHING ] [ SO WHAT ]

what so nice about holiday ? what so wonderful about getting 4.0 ?

well, i can tell you, is just NOTHING !

expecting the joys from the people that i ranked as most important in my life,

but i get no response !

is a bloomer for me to baseline myself in this particular situation,

is too childish for me to repose my confidence and hope in someone/something,

started to denigrate my attitudes- the willing to conquer, to revenge, to affinity, to confront the loneliness, to satisfy the desires,

after all, i am still far apart from the arrowhead and perfectionism,

i will actuate myself from boondoggle every minute.